There is No word to Desribe

There is No word to Desribe the feeling I have now!!

I gahter and learn a lot recently. It totaly changed my thinking and my self value.

This morning I have wake up, and I felt like the d'javo,.... that I have the same feeling before. Previosly, my understanding of this is our mind work too fast, and have go to future, "seeing" thing that happen in future.

Until I talk to a friend on last Sunday, finaly I understand it is totaly opposite!! We are not seeing the future, but we are the following the pass. What we exsperiant are destinated to happen!!

What a shock, Im stuck at the moment. All have been fiX. Even this blog Im write now, spelling mistake I make, all plan and destinated!!! Feeling, tention, presure, emotion, just like follow a formula, and all come into result which no other result.

What can I do. Im one of the billion smallest dust in the universe...

I start thinking. Why shall I keep this type of life? Am I fix to be so numb, so ordinary? Am l shall live with 3digits salary and spent 5digits? I have a better way to go. Im deserve more then this!!

I SMS my best friend, I got a mind blast this morning, and I may resign and go some where else. I will fight and atleast change of what I have now, I will be the God to Conversation with!!!

THE POWER OF NOW!!